What is surrender
When you're at the height of your emotions, surrender seems to be the nearest, sweetest thing possible. When so many things overpower you, it goes…out of your vision. What can you consciously do to surrender?
Don't try to surrender because what will you surrender?
What is it that you are going to surrender
First of all, it is out of a certain realisation that surrender happens.
It's when you see that these words are very heavy, and can be very misleading because you have always been taught self-worth and self-esteem, and confidence. These are the valuable things to make your life. Surrender is against all these things.
Only when you are worthless can you surrender, please see to it
If you have self-worth, self-esteem, and confidence, how can you surrender? But can you live without confidence; can you live without self-esteem or some sense of self-worth? Right now, no. See, if one has no sense of self-esteem or self-worth that can be the reason that any moment one is willing to go. If necessary, the next moment, the one is willing to go, because the one thinks, this is worth anything. Keep this on but because it seems to be useful for many lives around us, we keep this going. But there is no self-worth.
Because the sense of self itself is gone, where is the worth?
Self is not worth anything and to that which is not worth anything, if you add esteem, that's lots of trouble. And because of this esteem, this worthless thing, if it becomes confident, that's real trouble. But for the sake of survival, because people believed, people only believe, it's not true……
People believe unless you believe in yourselves, you cannot survive. It's not true. It's not true in an essential way. But people believe that and it's become true for them.
Whatever you believe, if you add sufficient focus and emotion to it, it becomes real, you know?
It becomes very real. All kinds of nonsensical belief systems around the world have become absolutely real for lots of people. Not for a small number of people. For the vast majority of the population, it's become real. They believe it and it is so.
What happens when you talk about surrender
Because of belief, these things have become real. But, whatever you believe and whatever you empower with your thoughts and your emotions, has no existential basis. When you talk about surrender, you are talking about, passing, passing from the limitations of one dimension to another. You knocked your head on the wall sufficiently, now you understand that unless you become like thin air, you will not pass. When you have realised this, that in your present form, you will never pass.
Suppose you are imprisoned
And the doors are thick and nothing happens, you can't go. There's a gutter, a filthy gutter if you crawl through this filth, you can get out to freedom. Will you choose to crawl…..crawl through the filth or not? You will, right? Yes
If that's the route to freedom, through the most horrible filth, you will crawl. It will go into your nostrils and your mouth and everywhere but it doesn't matter, it leads you to freedom, so you will crawl through filth. That's surrender.
What do we realise when we surrender
When you have realised that you can't cross the prison walls standing, that's surrender. That is why you are crawling. So, surrender is a certain realisation, that you realise in your present form, you cannot pass the gate. Hence you find a more intelligent way to pass.
Conclusion
When you surrender, that will not come by cultivation, that will come only by a certain realisation; either out of your intelligence or because life has ground you sufficiently, or that you are insane enough to fall in love in an unbridled way. Not in a conditional way, not in a sensible way, not in a nice way, in an insane way. Insane, like a Ramakrishna or a Mirabai, or Akka Mahadevi. There have been any number, they are only known names. They have been any number of them, who are insane. They are not sane, they are not nice, not at all nice if you want to know, but they are fantastic. That which is fantastic need not to be nice, usually it's not nice.
Great blog on an important topic!
ReplyDeleteYou are talking about something very deep and philosophical . And it makes sense to me. Perhaps you are saying that in order to surrender we have to let go of every attachment to self . All the best warrior Shuchi .
ReplyDeleteIt is right that surrender comes either u r intelligent enough or by detachment from worldy affairs.A poetry has rightly summed up the attachment to the Supreme one ie detachment from world in the lines:tu tu na rahe main main na rahun ek duje mein khon jaen.loke the personalities u mentioned.well versed prose.
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